Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Nap time is not just for babies

I'm here, I really am. The problem has been that I have been using Cole's nap well...nap time. I just can't seem to get my sleeping under control and have been averaging about 4-5 hours for the past month...maybe even longer. It take everything out of me to make it to nap time, after I put my sweet babe down I crawl back to bed, pass out for about an hour, and then wake up in a pool of drool. Yes, i become a drooling mess when I am's incredibly flattering along with the consistent bags under both my eyes.

My saving grace has been my sweet boy.  After battling him being ill for about 2 weeks straight, it was both rejuvenating and a breath of fresh air to have my happy healthy boy back. He returned to his sweet bubbling self, so much that I would often well up with tears as I received such love resonating from those chubby arms wrapped around my neck.

He blows me kisses. He hugs me tight.
 He giggles with such delight.
Oh, how my heart loves him.

I began to ponder how in the world was I going to have as much love to share with another. And then I read something the other day that totally made sense in relation to having more than one child. It said something along the lines of, your love doesn't become divided or shared but it grows in a way that you wouldn't think possible. All I can say is I have already fallen hard for the sweet little one growing in my belly....I can't hardly imagine how much deeper it will grow as we meet face to face. 

But for now, I have this sweet face to soak up. And oh, how my soul rejoices.

My boy. Thanks for keeping me on my toes and for bringing enough energy for the both of us. I can't wait to watch you grow into your role as a big brother. I'm sure you will take that role very seriously and shower your brother or sister with so much love, guidance, and kisses. Lots and lots of kisses.

Sunday, March 4, 2012

"Baby, baby, baby....oooooh."

One thing that has been made crystal clear is that pregnancy does crazy things not only to ones body but also their mental state. Such as, waking up after a dream that you are dating Justin, slightly illegal, isn't he like 15?! For the record, we only went to a movie...and he tried to hold my hand. I don't even like Justin Bieber, except I may have sang the same two lines of his "Baby" song over and over for at least two months straight. Then usually I would tell my dear husband how I really should have considered a career in singing.....this usually resulted in the rolling of eyes. Oh how he loves me. :) 

And then there was the the other night when I put away the cottage cheese in the pantry and the triscuits in the refrigerator. Lucky for me, I was hungry five minutes later and found the cottage cheese, still cold, while I was looking for something to munch on.....seems I'm always looking for something to munch on. It may just be my new favorite hobby.

And then there is the temper that can flair up with lightening speed, the tears that come if I see or hear the word baby, and the uncontrolled flailing of wooden spoons if I mess up the caramel sauce I am making. It's the little things that seem to tip me over the edge of insanity. Lucky for me I have a husband that reminds me I am being ridiculous but loves me regardless. he seriously has this special soothing way about him. I would be a Bieber-chasing, cottage cheese eatin', wild-mad-woman without him.

Onto other big news, we made it to 12 weeks and on our way to the second trimester. And I seem to be leaving all that nasty all-day-sickness behind me. I still have my moments, but for the most part I am starting to feel pretty darn good.

How far along? 12 weeks, 2 days
Total weight gain/loss: about 5 lbs.
Maternity clothes? No, not yet...I did find a pair of jeggings for about 10 bucks at forever 21 and they have been WONDERFUL!
Stretch marks? No
Sleep: I still have a love/hate relationship with the nighttime. It seems I wake up all the time, some nights I am wide awake while others I can hardly keep my eyes open.
Best moment this week: Not feeling sick! Yes!
Have you told family and friends: Of course.
Miss Anything? Sushi, my ability to sleep soundly, and my energy.
Movement: I actually think I have been feeling the baby move! Last night I kept feeling fluttery things, and then little bumps.
Food cravings: Vanilla soft serve ice cream cones. Just solved that craving this afternoon. :)
Anything making you queasy or sick: coffee, and anything with a white creamy base (such as alfredo sauce, or soup with a cream base.....oh man, I need to stop thinking about it)
Have you started to show yet: I think I am, but I don't think enough that people really notice yet.
Gender prediction: Girl
Labor Signs: No
Belly Button in or out?  in
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time: Well, this can change in the blink of an eye...for the most part happy, but I can cry at the drop of a pin.....
Weekly Wisdom: Take naps.